"
I am traveling alone"
This is
THE only sentence that seems to stump
BOTH my Korean co-teachers and my new Canadian/American/ British friends. I had assumed that in this day and age there would tons of single girls flocking to Asia to find work and have adventures. Teaching ESL in Asia in not unlike the gold rush days in the Yukon and Alaska. There's money to be made, a new countryside to explore, and an exciting, fascinating, and unique culture to embrace. It's also relatively safe(outside of this whole North Korea fiasco) and ultimately seems like the perfect place for young girls fresh out of university to come and explore.
Instead it seems like the majority of young women who come to Korea to teach are accompanied by their boyfriends or husbands. There are a few single women to be found but they are the minority. Even more rare is the girl that leaves her boyfriend at home to travel. Usually when I tell people that I have a boyfriend at home, I'm met with disbelief, disgust, and shock. I get asked questions like, "
If he's so great why are you in Korea?", "
Wow. Is he angry that you're here?", and my personal favorite, (that's so rude I usually can't help but act a little incredulous), "
Don't you think it's selfish to be traveling while he's home?". In fact I've even gotten comments on this very blog( cowardly comments that I've chosen not to post, because hey, it's my blog, and I'll do what I want) suggesting that I'm a huge, selfish, naive jerk for leaving Brandon behind for a year.
Here's the thing. I think everyone should try traveling alone. And living alone. It's not selfish to want to get know yourself a little better. When Brandon and I've traveled in the past, I've let him handle certain things that I'm now forced to handle myself. I'm learning Korean fairly quickly and I study it every night. I can read maps. I haven't lost a single important document. If Brandon was on this trip we would probably be spending time together and the studying would most likely not be happening, my map reading skills would be useless, and he would be carrying my passport for me. Discovering that I can do these things on my own is a huge confidence booster.I'm also in complete control of what I want to see and when I want to see it. Prada transformer? Sure. Modern art musesum at eight on a Saturday morning? No problem. Ten hour hiking trip? Yep.
I think it's important to live alone too. I'm learning how to cook new and interesting dishes. I'm discovering new hobbies(I just transformed a pillow case into a totally adorable dress). I'm making new friends. I also get to indulge in guilty pleasure behavior whenever I like and I don't have to consult anyone. I buy myself flowers once a week. I eat peanut butter straight from the jar. I dance to Metric, Teegan and Sarah, and various Musical Soundtracks without any shame whatsoever. I reread my favorite parts of books and watch Roman Holiday every third night. I go for fifteen Km long runs. I'm twenty-two and now is the time to live completely for myself, and that shouldn't have to come with any guilt.
It's also a two way street. I fully expect, want, and encourage Brandon to go have adventures too. When I return to Canada it will be time for another sea phase for Brandon, and he'll be on a ship for four months. I'm hoping he chooses to go somewhere far away and exotic(maybe up North with a possible trek to Greenland).
So yes, Yohaenghago Issumnida, and no, I don't think it's selfish.